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seriusss...kadang-kadang aku rasa penat dah nak hidup lagi.

aku nda larattt

if i've been given a choice

just a moment of time to choose

whether to live or die

i'd rather die

than go on like this

aku sudah kembali!

yah! bulih sda ni ak mo mnampar2 urg lagik..haha

tapi masi knun tesakit-sakit. kna suru mkan obat.

ai,matiklah ak mau menelan ni ubattt..punya basar eto antibiotik

paling bsemangatlah knun hari ni :P

semalam aku suda buang tu breast lump yang bikin sakit gilak2 tiba2 sebaik sja ak sampei bumi mesir neh

bulih2 mauk demam ar bisuknya..padahal nda pun aku tepandai homesick

meluncat-luncat lg ak kegembiraan sudah smpai sini

kahkahkah,,,getek btul!

ouh,lupa.. mau cerita ba itu knapa tba2 ak kna msuk hospital bat surgery kmarin

yeh,indeed that's my first time msuk OR (operation room) and kna bedah

just a minor surgery

tapi, bdebar gila2 knun...ndapa.ak sentiasa cool.*koya sekejap*

a week ago aku start jmpa duktur plan mo bat mammography lah

dari hospital nur islam yang paling dekat ngan rumah aku; mekong knun ak ni tem datang2.smpai reception tu kerani bilang misin nya rusak.okey~

then, aku n c kawan pun amiklah teksi, pigi hospital salama lama; kali ni tu pacik reception yg ensom pun bilang, ehemm bulum redy lagik tu misin,dik.pigi kau saaana salama baru.bhe~

sabar jaklah,,lugai2 dulu malas2. baru jalan kaki pigi hospital salama gadid(baru). this time aku misti jugak mau jumpa duktur.malas suda mo pigi tempat len.

ak sma c kawan pun neklah tengkat 3 outpatient clinic nya,,akhirnya ada la duktur nya.besukur ak ging tem tu.suda check2, duktur blang ak ada fibroadenoma.astaghe knun dlu aku,,alhamdulillah nasib bek benign ini penyakit.fuhhhh~ *melepaskan kelegaan luk*

pastu duktur suggest ak pigi bat fine needle aspiration tuk cytology test bagi kompom luk eto fibroadenoma.

bekejar lah ak ke sana tu petang sturg. tempat nya di mahattah raml.sana dakat hostel mara. baguslah at least ak tau2 tu tmpat nda susah mauk pusing2 mencarik. after kompom sda tu lab test, bisuknya pigi lg hospital salama kasi tunjuk sma duktur dan bat appoinment tuk surgery.

sblum surgery, ak kna suruh bat blood test.ok tepaksa datang lagik tu hospital hari sabtu nya ar.bha bat saja lah..malar ke hospital bekali2.

then, kemarin hari pembedahan. sendiri2 juga ak pigi. baru yg cm no feeling lah kan bjalan kaki nek tram pagik2 jam 9 tu.ai, sanggup lagik aku kna bedah dari menahan2 sakit diam2 sendiri begini. sabar jak.

ini pengalaman petama aku! jadik teruja la knun,,mahahahh getek

tedor2 bmimpi bukan2 knun atas katil tem kna bedah,,bulih2 bha..sedar2 abes da operation.macam magik daa~ haha

tenkyu kawan2 semua yg teman2 aku bantu2 bagi semangat sma ak sepanjang waktu ini :)

kawan2 di mesir neh and also yg jauh2 tu,,thanks 4 da concerns. ging2 pundan aku yg tsayang, my girlss~ aku sangatt rindu kmurang.even kmurang teda di sini ak tetap rasa cam kmu sntiasa di samping aku. really love you all bechek sekalian! (^,^)/

c pachik pn sama juga lah; thankyou! *muah3

go-go-cha-cha!

it was only just a dream

as we walked around

looking up for nothing

one place to another

breathed out some warm air

smiling to each other

chit chatting, unheard to know

of unspoken words

who never knew

then, we stopped by

in front of an ice-cream booth

attract-ilicious , woahhhh~~

rite then everything became blurry...

but, what's with 3/4 cup of caramel ice-cream?

aku pun tak paham.

nice article to read

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"

I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"

In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit) .

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.

You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"

And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.

This is when marriages or relationship breakdown. People blame their spouse/partner for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage/relationsh ip for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious.

But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.

You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE/RELATIONSHIP IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage/relationsh ip work. Sure true love can only happen after you've fallen out of love. When you begin choosing to love, even if you don't feel like doing it ---- that's true love. And that's the foundation of a lasting and strong marriage.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.

Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.

It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. .. you can "make"love.

Love is indeed a "decision".. . Not just a feeling. You'll not just go away with your relationship just because the feeling is gone.

For the way you changed my plans

For being the perfect distraction

For the way you took the idea that I had

Of everything that I wanted to have

And made me see

There was something missing
For the ending of my first begin
And for the rare and unexpected friend

For the way

You're something that I'd never choose

But at the same time something I don't wanna lose

And never wanna be without

Ever again

You're the best thing I never knew I needed

So when you appeared I had no idea

Now it's so clear

I need you here always

My accidental happily

Ever after

The way you smile and how you comfort me

With your laughter

I must admit you were not a part of my book

But now if you open it up and take a look

You're the beginning and the end

Of every chapter

Who knew that I could be

So unexpectedly

Undeniably happy

Sitting with you right here

Right here next to me

Because you're the best

'cause you're amazing just the way you are

i'll grab your hand

and never let it go again...

even sometimes

i found myself hard to explain it

trapped in the dark side

of unknown and unacceptable fantasy

'cause everything is never as it seems.

the dream says yes

but,in reality no.

so?

so,shut up lah.

beruang sdg driving.Oops! careful.